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Recently, a therapeutic massage counselor enjoying the celebration existence very often leaves him depressed: homosexual, solitary, Williamsburg,

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DAY ONE


10 a.m.

I love to sleep later part of the. My work is actually whatever hrs Needs, therefore I just be sure to never schedule something before noon. I’m a massage specialist exactly who works together with extremely choose customer base. We cost about $200 per massage, money, therefore if i actually do two massages per day, i actually do fine for me. These days, You Will Find three.


11 a.m.

I’m within fitness center, my favorite set in society. I have been exercising since senior high school, and I can’t live without one. Everyone knows me personally right here and it is close to a household personally. Some days we work out twice, but I won’t have enough time for that these days, thus I you will need to stuff everything in, in a single hour. No teasing or distractions nowadays. I’m a big flirt, making this hard for my situation.


1:30 p.m

. Hop on the subway to my personal very first client. He’s throughout the Upper East Side — a really outdated, like 70, extremely wealthy man. He’s unmarried and gay and a huge flirt too. We have a fairly rigid plan about perhaps not mixing company with pleasure. (notice: we break this policy over we care to confess.) I think with guys like him, it really is exciting sufficient only to have a younger gay male providing them with interest; it generally does not need to change sexual.


3:30 p.m.

Maneuvering to subsequent appointment from the UES therapeutic massage. It was fairly standard. He provided me with a $50 buck tip on the surface of the $200.


8:30 p.m

. I am practically house through the day’s-work.  Cute beat.


9:30 p.m.

My friend, Trey, tries to get me to started to some orgy this evening — an L.A. manufacturer provides anything at a hotel collection. Its right-up my personal alley but i am actually exhausted. Plus, In my opinion he i understand which i truly love, Mikey, is here. The guy has a tendency to address me like crap in general public, and not a lot better in private to tell the truth. Mikey and I run-in the same social groups. Young, gay, fit, intimate, „upscale“ people just looking for a very good time. I like him and now have emotions for him and then he is purely looking-to-fuck variety of man, so seeing him constantly makes me personally experiencing like crap (after acquiring shagged by him, and that’s usually a whole large). Its difficult!


DAY TWO


10 a.m.

Got a solid nights rest. My pal, Carl, is actually moving nowadays so I’m maneuvering to their apartment eventually to greatly help carry the heavy circumstances. He is getting all things in storage while he finds a much better apartment. Meanwhile, he’s staying in their glucose father’s household — this sugar father is never home, usually jet-setting someplace. Its a peculiar but form of alluring arrangement.


11 a.m

. We are transferring couches and dining tables to a U-Haul. Carl is actually a Broadway star along with his tales tend to be amazing. I imagined We got in many jizz, but Carl is actually moving on it — men see him behind period and just supply to strike him.


3 p.m.

We’re having a couple of drinks after our very own running the vehicle. Carl and I also want to be roommates but the guy can make more cash than I do, in which he comes from cash, so it is a little shameful. He swears he doesn’t mind since the most the lease but personally i think odd regarding it.


4:30 p.m.

One massage now but it’s a friend, so it’s fine that I might smell like beer.


7 p.m

. I am having even more products with another pal, Devon, before we check out a celebration in Soho. Its during the apartment of just one of Carl’s star pals.


9 p.m.

The party is illuminated. About 30 gorgeous men, all ages. Currently it is very kepted. Men and women drinking drink and mingling.


10:30 p.m.

Away comes the drugs, the fucking. Standard. I will be drug-free but I do not determine anybody. We satisfy a mature married pair, in addition they need to shag. We go into a bedroom. Greater guy bangs me personally while I blow their spouse. It really is rather hot.


12 a.m.

Mikey comes, however. I can’t break free him. He is intoxicated or high and being really flirtatious with me. We go back to the bedroom that I became merely fucked in and commence to fool around. He then fucks me personally. I like being with him intimately; our very own sexual chemistry is actually off the charts. But of course, once it’s over, I believe unfortunate about myself. I am not sure the reason why â€” most likely require therapy for this one. I choose call-it per night.


time THREE


10:30 p.m.

Carl discovered a flat for people to examine so I’m satisfying him indeed there. It’s in Clinton Hill. Really don’t truly know the spot. The place is fairly wonderful. We might each have an enormous bedroom and it’s really a great, spacious apartment for parties. Oh the damage we’re able to carry out here …


11:45 p.m.

We are trying to puzzle out the economic strategies. I’m uncomfortable.


3:30 p.m.

I must get the whole way to Harlem for a consultation. This guy, Marshall, always attempts to fuck around after all of our massage therapy, therefore I’m organizing myself personally for this. He’s appealing with a great dick but I always feel stressed how it’s going to perform around.


6:00 p.m.

Therefore here is how the therapeutic massage proved: Marshall actually needed a massage. He’s a fitness center addict and constantly truly tight. Used to do the full therapeutic massage and completed right up all professionally. After I came ultimately back to the space from cleansing my personal fingers, he had been like „Come here,“ and we started creating out immediately after which he blew myself.


9:00 p.m.

I’m house only covering from my bad roomates (one is the loudest, messiest individual in this field and also the other is her companion that is merely a follower) and figuring out the Carl roomie deal. The guy needs to know by the next day.


DAY FOUR


9:30 a.m

. I am functioning sooner than typical today because a friend hired me to carry out ten-minute massage treatments at his corporate escape (in fact it is not really a retreat because’s just at a lodge in Williamsburg). He said all men are hitched bores who are directly but probably closeted. In my opinion that’s the majority of „directly“ males.


2:30 p.m

. I am grateful I am recharging hourly since they wish hold myself around for the remainder time. This option are these types of methods.


5:00 p.m

. I am satisfying Carl right before their tv series. I made the decision to choose it: rent out the apartment collectively. I simply dislike my roommates really. I lay out these policies basic — like, if he’s investing in a lot of it, he has got to let myself manage groceries and cooking and washing (i am quite domestic). I simply want it to feel fair and I also need to prevent any issues. I’m no genius but i know those funds makes things weird between friends and really value the friendship. Without, we have never connected!


6 p.m.

I text Mikey to find out if he wants to commemorate my new apartment beside me. Champagne or just what not. He says he has programs (however) but he would love to meet up the next day night. Appears good to me.


7 p.m.

With nothing really accomplish, I go house.


8 p.m.

We take in some pot cookies that i have been keeping for the right second, invest my headsets and get to sleep very early as bang. I can’t believe i’ve two a lot more weeks inside hellscape.


time FIVE


8 a.m.

I went to sleep thus early so as that ways i will perform a monster work out. I intend to invest three hrs at Equinox.


12:30 p.m.

Getting ready for mid-day beverages with Mikey. I Understand exactly how this may stop …


1:30 p.m.

Over lunch I you will need to get prone with Mikey. We simply tell him I’m not trying to find a monogamous relationship or any such thing main-stream but I wish to save money time with him. He’s in this way of deflecting and making bull crap of every little thing. It isn’t heading anyplace so rather we just contrast gender and orgy stories. It really is particular a tournament with men within our team, simply how much we bang weekly. Its a game. I understand this defintely won’t be my life permanently but i am appreciating being in it for the time being.


4:30.p.m.

We split a bottle of rosé and are usually returning to Mikey’s household. I’m not sure why this one man can make myself feel brilliant and thus terrible while doing so. Their roommate is home. We make small-talk with him, next go into Mikey’s place and change the music on. Mikey tells me get down and strike him. The guy fucks my mouth area until I’m gagging. And he fucks me while addressing my throat firmly and so I can not scream nor scarcely breathe. It is fucking hot. Really. Fucking. Hot.


6 p.m.

I have a night appointment to massage a normal customer. I really wanna terminate since Mikey and I also are in fact cuddling and experiencing near. It’s really poor to terminate on litigant though, and this is not a month that i could afford to shed business. I make my self get outfitted and leave. I believe its great that I walk off whenever Mikey demonstrably wishes me to remain. It really is best that you end up being much less available to him.


8:30 p.m.

My nightly appointment asks me personally about my sex-life each and every time we massage him. He is hitched and actually loyal (whoa) so he likes to live vicariously through my tales.


10 p.m.

I’m house and as well fatigued to text back any of my buddies, all that happen to be inquiring where Im since it is an effective celebration night. We’ll go!


time SIX


10 a.m.

You will find a coffee „date“ using my first and simply actual boyfriend now, Simon. Simon and I also got serious in school (both of us decided to go to school in Ny) therefore we had a very tender, relationship for around three years. Finally, i desired to fall asleep together with other guys and view what otherwise was available. I’d dreams of living the life i am residing now: the celebration life, straight out of a film. And I achieved it. Simon is a serial monogamist and it has been with someone since our very own separation. His house life is very steady and frankly, boring, and he informs me exactly about it over break fast.

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2 p.m.

First customer. Hot, semi-famous actor in a hotel space. No amusing company many flirtation. I gamble We’ll find some inebriated, late-night text from him later on. I understand these types.


5 p.m.

Im heading to my 2nd customer of the day. Not in mood! He is a truly great guy. He is homosexual and once he asked us to pull him down (i did so), but the majority in our massages are only fundamental.


7:30 p.m

. Proceeding residence. No BJ. Just standard.


9:30 p.m.

Concealing from bad roommates with my headsets on.


DAY SEVEN


11 a.m

. My personal closest friend from youth, Albert, is on its way to New York from L.A. nowadays. He’s just got 1st job in a writers place available and I’m super-proud of him. He’s a huge teddy-bear. Gay and with the exact same guy permanently. Totally faithful in so far as I understand …


1:30 p.m.

I just take Albert to brunch in Williamsburg and in addition we catch up. He seems really happy. We FaceTime together with date that’s an actual sweetie. It doesn’t look so very bad. He loves hearing all my tales as well as better or worse, they’re unlimited.


2 p.m.

Now I’m telling him concerning the time I managed to get screwed 5 times in a single evening at a Halloween celebration orgy. It may sound truly horrifying as I state it loud but truthfully, it was one of the more fun nights of living.


7:30 p.m.

I’m out over dinner with Albert several of his cast members because of this tv series he is taking care of. Stars tend to be these narcissists. I’ve found it boring and text Mikey observe what he is around. He does not write back.


10 p.m.

I am house. Absolutely nothing great is going on this evening. Personally I think type lonely and kind of bare. This is the complication on the life I lead. Countless levels and lows. Like I said, i am aware this way of life don’t last forever. We’ll outgrow it or it will probably outgrow me. But I’m going to you will need to enjoy myself personally as much as I can. I-go to fall asleep fantasizing about my then activities …


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